Crystaldewgems....
This is ME! Living life as I should...
Sunday, February 09, 2014
Your love
Your love is like a drug to me
Slowly taking over my all
Your love is like a salvation for me
Slowly seeking me out
If you said by leaving me
Its e best for me
I dont wan e best
If you said by cutting me off
Its the only way for me
I wan another alternative
Between our love i tot theres no boundary
Between us i tot theres no pride
Yet here i stand infront of u
With the vast ocean btween us, me stripped from you
Those promises u gave before, broken amd forgotten
Those memories u gave, burnt into my soul
I have no heart
I am unwhole
You taught me nothing is fair in this world
I do not want fairness
Coz fairness is nothing
I just want you to hold me when i sleep
To comfort me when i cry
To laugh along with me when im being silly
I juz want to hold you when u sleep
Listening to your heartbeat
You wont cry infront of me, but i just wan to tell you everythings gonna be alright
I jus wan to make you laugh from the bottom of your heart
Im being irresponsible u flared at me
Im being inconsiderate u shouted at me
Im just adding on to your burden
I saw the pain in your eyes
And your pain adds to mine
If my absence is e only way to make you happy
To remedy the whole situation
Cut me up strip me bare
Leave no chance to put me down
Trample and stab my heart
Let it bleed away all
Leave it out in the open as it aint worthy
anymore
Give me the final ending
As i so much wanted it
Give me the closure
So that my soul would accept the reality
Im willingly to step away just what you had asked from me
Juzt tell me the words im needing
I do not want to stop in this unknown
I do not want to think you would hold my hands forever
I do not want to see you caught inbtween pain
If true love is putting ur happiness first
I would let you go
Just give me the conclusion
Thursday, February 06, 2014
Closure
A closure is all i need
To close the void
An ending to the masquerade i led
Web of deceit shrouded over me
Those words u said, meaningless
Say it now or hold your peace
I'm never gonna look at you the same way as before
My eyes blinded my body scarred
My heart trampled my soul jaded
My mind frozen with a thousand doubts
Twirling in this desolute blackness
Who am i to ask for help
A conclusion becomes my salvation
Give me the resolution
To leave this inception
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Wild fox
The wild fox with her fiery red fur, haughty and proud.
She never let anyone or anything near her caged heart.
She shielded it fiercely with her all might.
She rejected all those that came near her.
That was in the past….
Now the fox stood haggard and ashamed, no longer wild.
She let her enemy into her life unknowingly.
The enemy appeared, stepped into her life.
The enemy tamed, played with her heart and left it broken
into pieces.
Out of her life, back to where he came from.
Never had the fox anticipated that.
She couldn’t breathe; her life had been taken away.
She couldn’t understand; her mind had been blown.
She couldn’t accept; Gods above were playing a joke on her.
She was once untamed, she was once free.
She smiled at the sunshine and danced in the rains.
She painted her own rainbows and found her pots of gold.
Now she is trapped in the depth of sorrow.
She weeps in the shadows and howl at the moon.
She draws the cloaks of darkness closer and uses them as
warmth.
The fox, tamed and unwanted.
The fox lost in despair, could not find her sunshine and rain.
The fox blinded by sorrow, could no longer paint rainbows.
The fox tamed, could not find her place in this world
anymore….
Monday, September 09, 2013
Life
We are all as one but we don't move as one...
Just received news that one of my overseas contact had passed on... That was shocking, he was barely 60. His life was so taken away from him...
Rip LT..
Monday, August 19, 2013
Post mortem
I felt as if i had dissected... Many can read me but I refuse to believe..
This fatigue, this is dragging me down..
I'm so tired that I shut off all...
All but the memories..
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