Thursday, September 12, 2013

Wild fox

The wild fox with her fiery red fur, haughty and proud.

She never let anyone or anything near her caged heart.

She shielded it fiercely with her all might.

She rejected all those that came near her.

That was in the past….


Now the fox stood haggard and ashamed, no longer wild.

She let her enemy into her life unknowingly.

The enemy appeared, stepped into her life.

The enemy tamed, played with her heart and left it broken into pieces.

Out of her life, back to where he came from.

Never had the fox anticipated that.

She couldn’t breathe; her life had been taken away.

She couldn’t understand; her mind had been blown.

She couldn’t accept; Gods above were playing a joke on her.


She was once untamed, she was once free.

She smiled at the sunshine and danced in the rains.

She painted her own rainbows and found her pots of gold.

Now she is trapped in the depth of sorrow.

She weeps in the shadows and howl at the moon.

She draws the cloaks of darkness closer and uses them as warmth.


The fox, tamed and unwanted.

The fox lost in despair, could not find her sunshine and rain.

The fox blinded by sorrow, could no longer paint rainbows.

The fox tamed, could not find her place in this world anymore….


Monday, September 09, 2013

Life

We are all as one but we don't move as one...
Just received news that one of my overseas contact had passed on... That was shocking, he was barely 60. His life was so taken away from him...
Rip LT..

Monday, August 19, 2013

Post mortem

I felt as if i had dissected... Many can read me but I refuse to believe..
This fatigue, this is dragging me down..
I'm so tired that I shut off all...
All but the memories..

Friday, August 16, 2013

Come clean

I had suddenly aired my views and feelings and I felt so much better after that...
Suddenly my world  seems more peaceful and I'm really glad that he is accepting the facts too..
I shan't think too much of the future and it's really time to be stronger...
As the saying goes, "you live and you learn"..
And I'm just gonna do just that..

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

I never thought I would post again BUT....

Welll I guess the title of my blog says it all BUT...
As the saying goes, "there's always a BUT somewhere.." Ha!

Recently I had been feeling so miserable and so lost that I allowed myself to drink too much.
I'm not ashamed of saying that out loud but I do believe I drink too much... : (
It feels as if I'm always going around in carousel circles and it gets weary every now and then.
I guess now is then...

Need a bit more time to sort out my thoughts and feels...
A holiday would be good! Yeah I should think so...



Monday, July 08, 2013

3 months 11 days

My last post seems so vague.
I seem so lost...

Funny how when the brains are occupied with stuff, issues and all, it never occurred to me that I should blog. 
And how when things are starting to turn into mayhem, I start to close an eye to the disorder and suddenly felt an itch to blog......     : ((

It's 3 months away to my big day. And I'm starting to feel the heat now. 
Have not really done anything particularly special to preps myself. 
I kept reminding myself that "it's gonna be a day when any and everything would happen" and "get ready for the worst".
I am paranoid. Period.

Then again, back to my pre-wedding preps, I guess there's really nothing much to preps. 
Initially I wanted the venue ceiling to be decorated with ciel colored pom poms (which reminded me of cool waters) but it proven to be too labour intensive to hang all 120 poms in 1 hour. So scrapped the idea...
Then again, I wanted a candy bar but it seems expenses (for the wedding) are piling up non-stop so.... Scrapped the idea too... 

That's why I realised me and L are cutting back on a lot of ideas, originally from what we wanted of this wedding. I don't deny that I am somewhat disappointed (hey, any and everything could happen then) but I guess as long as the preps are kept within our budget and everyone (especially the couple, me and L) are having fun, we could keep things to a minimum. : ))

I couldn't post pictures of the gown I chose, wanna keep it a secret and I just wanna say I'm really in love with it! Can't wait for the photoshoot on this coming Wednesday! Will post pictures soon!!

Wednesday, March 20, 2013