I had not been weaving my creative skills for such a long time that sometimes I wonder, can I still write?
Or even form a decent sentence in my crumpled mind?!
Had been so lazy to write that I totally deserted my blog.
Ain't really a good choice because it's so empty now...
Found an old piece of writing of mine...
Was really surprised that I sound cynical..
*sigh* (But I always had been that way...)
Through the Looking Glass
I caught the look in your eyes
A look of fear and despair
You don't believe in this world
You had been let down too many times
Hurt deeply...
By friends? By loved ones?
Or was it the harsh reality that crushed your fragile self?!
You are wounded, struggling to stand tall and proud
You didn't want to give up..
Your dreams seem to dissolve in those dark pools of black in your eyes
Dreams that are so distant, so unreal
Yet you hold on to them because they belong solely to you
You wouldn't say anything
You didn't avoid my eyes
You juz stared
Lost and vague but unwillingly to admit defeat
Why put on such a mask?
Why be cynical?
There's a trace of silvery tear trail down your cheeks
Were you crying?
Do you always cry alone in the nights?
The dancing sparkle in your eyes had long lost
Your smiles were juz like play doh
Is it a torture for you to be on this world?
Your desolution is so thick that I couldn't reach out to you
I wish to cry for you, hold you in my arms
You didn't even trust me
You couldn't even trust yourself..
Your doubts drove everyone far...
You yearn for love and acceptance
But you don't believe in them
You cried for independance and freedom
But you can't stand alone...
What do you want from this world?
Eyes seeing but exactly what are you looking for?
I think we had drifted apart..
I don't understand you at all
Your vulnerability is despicable yet sorrowful...
Your stubborness is stupid yet brave...
Do not turn me away...Do not reject me...
I came to you but you spoke nothingness...
I touched you, only to touch cold glass...
I blinked and I realised you did too...
I smiled and you had that fakey struggling smile too..
I was looking at you and you looked back....
I was looking at myself in the mirror.....
