My boyfriend has forgotten we are supposed to celebrate our 1st year anniversary tonight.
I can't believe it..
How do you define "disappointment"?
Does it come with tinges of blues and a faint piercing pain?
I don't know...
All I know is he has totally forgot about our plans...
After a long day of impatiently waiting for the work day to end, I relished the thought of celebrations..
He called whilst I was en route to the dinner venue.
He had to work late and I thought he was pulling my leg, and deep within me I was thinking, "he's gonna give me a surprise later by turning up unannounced"
But no.. he had forgotten the reason why we are dining out..
And was nonchalent about it.
I teared..
I hate myself for having high expectations of a good quiet romantic dinner.
I hate myself for being dependent on him to make me happy.
I went all the way to the venue.
Disappointment turns into anger. Anger dissolved into sad old blues by the time I window shopped around the shopping mall.
Got a Subway Melt as dinner.
Lotsa jalenos; they burned my tongue.
A stinging numbess.
Taste of disappointment?
I guess so....
Monday, January 19, 2009
Thursday, January 08, 2009
Sales!
Argggghhhh... SALES is my favourite word after LOVE, I guess..
Both makes my body tingle with excitement, the heart skipping a beat in anticipation...
Ooooh except for one thing - I'm super broke now... (spent my all on SALES everywhere recently) *sobz*
I wanna blog coz it really occurred to me earlier in the day that I'm really 30 years old.
(I still can't get over the fact huh?!) and I'm getting nowhere in my life...
That is sooo not surprising because I take everything with a pinch of salt, everyday is a surprise and I'm riding the carousel, building castles in the air. *sighz* Damnit, where and what was I doing in the past 30 years? Geez...
Anyway I chanced upon an old blog site of mine and was wondering had I ever changed throughout the two years that I started blogging? (besides the fact that I'm catching on the years) Was thinking that I used to make lists, lotsa lists in the past but not anymore now.
And so today, now I'm gonna blog a list of things about me, you all should and must know.
*evil laugh*
88 Things about Me!
1. I'm in love with BB.
2. I'm turning 30 years old in another 1.5 months or so.
3. Oh yes, I wouldn't mind if you all wanna give me 30 presents.
4. I'm still living with my parents. (yess I'm a parasite)
5. I love.
6. I love sales. (isn't it amazing? my favie words all in a sentence?!)
7. I have a very short tail so dun go stepping around.
8. I won't hestiate to bite if you step on my tail.
9. I have a low pain threshold.
10. I hate paperwork! (hear that, boss?!)
11. I'm a fan of all CSI series.
12. I love online shopping.
13. I can't understand the society today.
14. I can't understand the majority of teens, young adults who assumed they make up the whole of society.
15. But I'm guilty of possessing that "ME ME" attitude too. (at times only..)
16. I'm not sooo good with figures.
17. That includes mine. For all you wanna know, I'm fat.
18. I'm fatter than fat, okies?!
19. Back to figures, I'm really poor in mathematical sums. Whatever.
20. I love car rides.
21. I collect make-up. (too much, too many..)
22. I dun mind ice-cream for breakfast, lunch nor dinner.
23. Make that Ben & Jerrys pleassssse.
24. And put fresh fruits in the sundae too.
25. Raisins would be sweet too!
26. Okies enuff about ice-cream.
27. I can't MSN during working hours.
28. I love my family.
29. I wuold mate a ploor spielling beee,
30. I'm all for Obama. (yeah you go man!)
31. I'm a music junkie.
32. Foodie junkie too.
33. BUT I'm trying to change all that.
34. More veggies and less meat.
35. Especially red meat.
36. I used to be a compulsive smoker.
37. Now I'm a social smoker.
38. Wishing that I was a non-smoker all along. *sighz*
39. I'm attracted to cutesy brown teddy bears.
40. I wish BB is a bear sometimes too! (I bet he will kill me if he reads this)
41. I wish the world would be more of a better place every year.
42. I'm fascinated by Chanel bags now.
43. Looking forward to one soon.
44. I'm a professional daydreamer.
45. I adore black's elegance.
46. And I abhore its simplicity.
47. I hate doing the laundry.
48. The ironing.
49. The dishes...
50. In fact I hate housework.
51. But I'm trying to learn (so that I can be a better wife for the future)
52. I like cooking though.
53. Thinking of taking up baking lessons.
54. And tennis, golf lessons too.
55. Ohhh forget it.. Jus a passing thought (hmmmm)
56. I like beer.
57. Not the aftermath of too much beer though (hangover plus beer belly)
58. I'm permanently on a diet.
59. I had reduced my blogging activities to the minimum (argh lazy me!)
60. I would love to travel to Bintan for my birthday (hint!)
61. I bitch too much.
62. Whinning excessively is something I got an A++ for.
63. I wish for global peace.
64. I believe there is good in everyone.
65. I'm too naive.
66. I suck in poetry.
67. I have "table-for-one" phobia.
68. I'm a neurotic.
69. Being "gan-cheong' spidey, worrying about everything and nothing.
70. I'm subnormal (as described by my friend, N)
71. I would like to think that I'm paranormal.
72. I like Brad and Angelina is sooooo overrated.
73. And passe..
74. I like reading other blogs.
75. I think this list is long..
76. I believe there ain't much freedom of speech here.
77. I like to paint my own rainbow but I ran out of colors...
78. I trust that there are others out there..
79. That would be fun!
80. I love to make up different names for myself.
81. Is that a sign of identity crisis?!
82. I can't sing.
83. Painfully yes but I would rather spare you guys the pain.
84. I can't swim either..
85. I love cats.
86. I check my personal emails diligently on weekdays.
87. I don't have a favourite color but I do like purple more than the others.
88. I'm bored (now)
Both makes my body tingle with excitement, the heart skipping a beat in anticipation...
Ooooh except for one thing - I'm super broke now... (spent my all on SALES everywhere recently) *sobz*
I wanna blog coz it really occurred to me earlier in the day that I'm really 30 years old.
(I still can't get over the fact huh?!) and I'm getting nowhere in my life...
That is sooo not surprising because I take everything with a pinch of salt, everyday is a surprise and I'm riding the carousel, building castles in the air. *sighz* Damnit, where and what was I doing in the past 30 years? Geez...
Anyway I chanced upon an old blog site of mine and was wondering had I ever changed throughout the two years that I started blogging? (besides the fact that I'm catching on the years) Was thinking that I used to make lists, lotsa lists in the past but not anymore now.
And so today, now I'm gonna blog a list of things about me, you all should and must know.
*evil laugh*
88 Things about Me!
1. I'm in love with BB.
2. I'm turning 30 years old in another 1.5 months or so.
3. Oh yes, I wouldn't mind if you all wanna give me 30 presents.
4. I'm still living with my parents. (yess I'm a parasite)
5. I love.
6. I love sales. (isn't it amazing? my favie words all in a sentence?!)
7. I have a very short tail so dun go stepping around.
8. I won't hestiate to bite if you step on my tail.
9. I have a low pain threshold.
10. I hate paperwork! (hear that, boss?!)
11. I'm a fan of all CSI series.
12. I love online shopping.
13. I can't understand the society today.
14. I can't understand the majority of teens, young adults who assumed they make up the whole of society.
15. But I'm guilty of possessing that "ME ME" attitude too. (at times only..)
16. I'm not sooo good with figures.
17. That includes mine. For all you wanna know, I'm fat.
18. I'm fatter than fat, okies?!
19. Back to figures, I'm really poor in mathematical sums. Whatever.
20. I love car rides.
21. I collect make-up. (too much, too many..)
22. I dun mind ice-cream for breakfast, lunch nor dinner.
23. Make that Ben & Jerrys pleassssse.
24. And put fresh fruits in the sundae too.
25. Raisins would be sweet too!
26. Okies enuff about ice-cream.
27. I can't MSN during working hours.
28. I love my family.
29. I wuold mate a ploor spielling beee,
30. I'm all for Obama. (yeah you go man!)
31. I'm a music junkie.
32. Foodie junkie too.
33. BUT I'm trying to change all that.
34. More veggies and less meat.
35. Especially red meat.
36. I used to be a compulsive smoker.
37. Now I'm a social smoker.
38. Wishing that I was a non-smoker all along. *sighz*
39. I'm attracted to cutesy brown teddy bears.
40. I wish BB is a bear sometimes too! (I bet he will kill me if he reads this)
41. I wish the world would be more of a better place every year.
42. I'm fascinated by Chanel bags now.
43. Looking forward to one soon.
44. I'm a professional daydreamer.
45. I adore black's elegance.
46. And I abhore its simplicity.
47. I hate doing the laundry.
48. The ironing.
49. The dishes...
50. In fact I hate housework.
51. But I'm trying to learn (so that I can be a better wife for the future)
52. I like cooking though.
53. Thinking of taking up baking lessons.
54. And tennis, golf lessons too.
55. Ohhh forget it.. Jus a passing thought (hmmmm)
56. I like beer.
57. Not the aftermath of too much beer though (hangover plus beer belly)
58. I'm permanently on a diet.
59. I had reduced my blogging activities to the minimum (argh lazy me!)
60. I would love to travel to Bintan for my birthday (hint!)
61. I bitch too much.
62. Whinning excessively is something I got an A++ for.
63. I wish for global peace.
64. I believe there is good in everyone.
65. I'm too naive.
66. I suck in poetry.
67. I have "table-for-one" phobia.
68. I'm a neurotic.
69. Being "gan-cheong' spidey, worrying about everything and nothing.
70. I'm subnormal (as described by my friend, N)
71. I would like to think that I'm paranormal.
72. I like Brad and Angelina is sooooo overrated.
73. And passe..
74. I like reading other blogs.
75. I think this list is long..
76. I believe there ain't much freedom of speech here.
77. I like to paint my own rainbow but I ran out of colors...
78. I trust that there are others out there..
79. That would be fun!
80. I love to make up different names for myself.
81. Is that a sign of identity crisis?!
82. I can't sing.
83. Painfully yes but I would rather spare you guys the pain.
84. I can't swim either..
85. I love cats.
86. I check my personal emails diligently on weekdays.
87. I don't have a favourite color but I do like purple more than the others.
88. I'm bored (now)
Sunday, January 04, 2009
Sweet Melody
My body is a funny thing, there I was feeling fine and blogging earlier in the day.
And now I'm sick! *barf*
No kidding; it all started straight after my lunch when I threw everything up.
Stomach contents ain't pretty all over the toilet bowl. (Yesss I hear you guys throwing up now too!) I merely brushed it off as indigestion. That mee rebus was cold and oily so definitely I did not take well to it. CSI reruns on AXN was definitely more important! (compared to getting myself vexed)
However after the first CSI, I couldn't take it anymore.
My heart, thumping like mad, the head spinning and I was getting the chills.
Hello?! The temp is sooo hot outside and I'm getting the chills, ain't really a good sign.
Laid down to rest and BB came by around 4pm.
He seems to know I was sick even though we had not communicated for the day and brought some vit C tablets (+ 10 points)
Told me he gotta attend a wedding dinner and couldn't accompany me for the day (blah!!! should - 20 points hohoho)
Anyway he stayed only for awhile coz he was rushing back to prep for the dinner (how vain!)
I tried to rest after he had left but couldn't.
Was feeling sicker than ever. YUCKS!
Anyway juz wished that I had not had dinner. Food could be better consumed than end up in the toilet bowl... *tears*
Thought of cheering myself up by doing a list.
Yeah a list of all things that make me happy/please me/brings a smile to my face.
Yeah! So here is my list, not in any particular preference.
List of things that make me happy/please me/brings a smile to my face.
1. Rainy days (only at the correct time ie when I want to lie in)
2. Vaseline Cocoa butter body lotion (smells yummy!)
3. Able to see BB after a long hard day at work.
4. Able to see BB anytime of the day for that matter.
5. Freshly baked bread
6. Twelve, my teddy bear
7. Fog (not the pollution kinda, but the kinda misty romantic old-skool fog)
8. Pretty cupcakes
9. Puppies
10. Kittens
11. Shopping for shoes!
12. Mushroom soup (ahhhh this always make me happy and satisfied)
13. Sales
14. Hot Chocolate (the band as well as the drink)
15. Purple in all shades (ie from liliac to mauve)
16. Rainbows
17. Massages
18. Gummy bears
19. Roses
20. Free wi-fi
21. Foot Massages
22. Pandas (how cute!!)
23. Mango Ice
24. Calla lilies
25. CSI
26. A stroll with BB
27. Ben & Jerrys (any favour, man!)
28. Summer dresses
29. Memories of my holiday in Amalfi
30. Hanging out with the gang's wifes (data sharing okies)
31. Forever 21 online sprees
32. Pasta (ooh watch my diet!)
33. Pretty wedding gowns
34. Gingerbread man
35. BB's smell especially when he is fresh out from the shower
36. Beach strolls
37. A holiday to Banyan Tree Resorts/Club Med
38. My super soft bed
39. Soba noodles
40. Orange walls
41. Camellias
42. Online shopping
43. Stars (of the cosmic kinda, not the Calecott Hill nor Hollywood type)
44. Dinner with my loved ones
45. Shocking pink
46. Pampering BB (which is seldom but I wish to do more for him)
47. Taking pictures
48. Lounge music
49. Visions of my future with BB (okies super mushy, this one!)
50. Not having to work on a Monday (hahha)
And now I'm sick! *barf*
No kidding; it all started straight after my lunch when I threw everything up.
Stomach contents ain't pretty all over the toilet bowl. (Yesss I hear you guys throwing up now too!) I merely brushed it off as indigestion. That mee rebus was cold and oily so definitely I did not take well to it. CSI reruns on AXN was definitely more important! (compared to getting myself vexed)
However after the first CSI, I couldn't take it anymore.
My heart, thumping like mad, the head spinning and I was getting the chills.
Hello?! The temp is sooo hot outside and I'm getting the chills, ain't really a good sign.
Laid down to rest and BB came by around 4pm.
He seems to know I was sick even though we had not communicated for the day and brought some vit C tablets (+ 10 points)
Told me he gotta attend a wedding dinner and couldn't accompany me for the day (blah!!! should - 20 points hohoho)
Anyway he stayed only for awhile coz he was rushing back to prep for the dinner (how vain!)
I tried to rest after he had left but couldn't.
Was feeling sicker than ever. YUCKS!
Anyway juz wished that I had not had dinner. Food could be better consumed than end up in the toilet bowl... *tears*
Thought of cheering myself up by doing a list.
Yeah a list of all things that make me happy/please me/brings a smile to my face.
Yeah! So here is my list, not in any particular preference.
List of things that make me happy/please me/brings a smile to my face.
1. Rainy days (only at the correct time ie when I want to lie in)
2. Vaseline Cocoa butter body lotion (smells yummy!)
3. Able to see BB after a long hard day at work.
4. Able to see BB anytime of the day for that matter.
5. Freshly baked bread
6. Twelve, my teddy bear
7. Fog (not the pollution kinda, but the kinda misty romantic old-skool fog)
8. Pretty cupcakes
9. Puppies
10. Kittens
11. Shopping for shoes!
12. Mushroom soup (ahhhh this always make me happy and satisfied)
13. Sales
14. Hot Chocolate (the band as well as the drink)
15. Purple in all shades (ie from liliac to mauve)
16. Rainbows
17. Massages
18. Gummy bears
19. Roses
20. Free wi-fi
21. Foot Massages
22. Pandas (how cute!!)
23. Mango Ice
24. Calla lilies
25. CSI
26. A stroll with BB
27. Ben & Jerrys (any favour, man!)
28. Summer dresses
29. Memories of my holiday in Amalfi
30. Hanging out with the gang's wifes (data sharing okies)
31. Forever 21 online sprees
32. Pasta (ooh watch my diet!)
33. Pretty wedding gowns
34. Gingerbread man
35. BB's smell especially when he is fresh out from the shower
36. Beach strolls
37. A holiday to Banyan Tree Resorts/Club Med
38. My super soft bed
39. Soba noodles
40. Orange walls
41. Camellias
42. Online shopping
43. Stars (of the cosmic kinda, not the Calecott Hill nor Hollywood type)
44. Dinner with my loved ones
45. Shocking pink
46. Pampering BB (which is seldom but I wish to do more for him)
47. Taking pictures
48. Lounge music
49. Visions of my future with BB (okies super mushy, this one!)
50. Not having to work on a Monday (hahha)
2009
Happy new year!!!
Wow, it's like 4 days after the all the fireworks, after all the champagne had gone THEN I'm blogging here..
Kinda slow har?!
Well... there's nothing to update about except I'm still alive..
(I guess you guys already knew and were cursing under your breath now)
And I'm gonna be officially 30 years old in 2months' time!
Woahh 30 is a scary number, man..
It's like I'm struck in between the youth and middle-aged category..
Let me see how many female friends do I have are in that category?
There's F, M, J and L....
Gosh!!! Less than 5!!!
I'm soooo gonnna faint! (no wonder I keep hearing voices saying "welcome to the club" in my head)
On the other hand, being 30 ain't sooo bad.
Except I can't think of any of the advantages now. *bleah*
Well I do hope I am wise enuff (applies to all aspects in my life), I hope there is more freedom when I'm not viewed as a kid anymore.
Life goes on eh?! It doesn't matter how old a person is; survival is stil ultimately prime.
I still cannot believe that my life has gone on past me, without stopping to really let me reflect and now I'm 30!
Arghhhhhhh...
I did not make resolutions for this year.
Feels kinda disappointed that they don't always materialize.
Partially is my fault eh, never putting in effort to realise them.
How difficult it is to be happy? I could never understand why year after year, I had this on tops of my resolution list..
Thus from now on, I wouldn't care about resolutions.
I have goals and wishes. And it's up to me to do more to realize them....
Perhaps I shall say more as the year unravels...
Wow, it's like 4 days after the all the fireworks, after all the champagne had gone THEN I'm blogging here..
Kinda slow har?!
Well... there's nothing to update about except I'm still alive..
(I guess you guys already knew and were cursing under your breath now)
And I'm gonna be officially 30 years old in 2months' time!
Woahh 30 is a scary number, man..
It's like I'm struck in between the youth and middle-aged category..
Let me see how many female friends do I have are in that category?
There's F, M, J and L....
Gosh!!! Less than 5!!!
I'm soooo gonnna faint! (no wonder I keep hearing voices saying "welcome to the club" in my head)
On the other hand, being 30 ain't sooo bad.
Except I can't think of any of the advantages now. *bleah*
Well I do hope I am wise enuff (applies to all aspects in my life), I hope there is more freedom when I'm not viewed as a kid anymore.
Life goes on eh?! It doesn't matter how old a person is; survival is stil ultimately prime.
I still cannot believe that my life has gone on past me, without stopping to really let me reflect and now I'm 30!
Arghhhhhhh...
I did not make resolutions for this year.
Feels kinda disappointed that they don't always materialize.
Partially is my fault eh, never putting in effort to realise them.
How difficult it is to be happy? I could never understand why year after year, I had this on tops of my resolution list..
Thus from now on, I wouldn't care about resolutions.
I have goals and wishes. And it's up to me to do more to realize them....
Perhaps I shall say more as the year unravels...
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