25months

25months on and things are changing..
People change, did you?
Or had I changed?

I know you try to be there but more often than not, I'm alone...
You never say anthing, never do..
It's as if I'm dating myself, having conversations with myself, shopping by myself or having dinner with myself except the seat opposite is taken by you...
The telly is more attractive than me anyway, it doesn't matter whether I sat beside nor opposite you..

I thought by talking more, shows that I had contributed
I thought by making all the plans, taking care of matters that evolves around us would leave you more time for me..
I thought by being passionate about us would make you fall deeper for me..
Well, I had always thought wrong..

I talk too much that I couldn't even hear the cracks..
I made too much plans that I didn't even stopped to ask whether were you available for me
I was too passionate about stuff that wouldn't even matter at all...

Tis a bad time to be thinking did I talk too much or did you stop caring at all..
Tis a day before Valentine, one hour to be exact..
An hour before the Lunar New Year...

Jaded...