What?!

It has been so long, long that I posted in here....
So long that I was thinking perhaps I should abandon my blog instead.

This blog laid neglected to one side whilst I went around tidying the daily routines.
Was I so busy that I had overlooked a portion of me?
I used to love writing, used to. Nowadays I just keep my "writings" inside of me.
Written today, forgotten tomorrow...
Perhaps my brains had been reduced to one pathetic mush that is incapable of expressing myself anymore. The only things I speak of nowadays are mainly work-related problems that are piling up.

I believe a brake, I mean a break (ha, even as I typed, "brake" comes out first, I specialize in aircraft landing gears, wheels and brakes, in case anyone ask what is the point I'm trying to make now) would be good. 
Or even a couple of days' away from the bustle of life, to just hole up in my house and eat ice-cream. Brownies too. Wait, make some french fries as well.
A massage? To knead away the tight knots (in the first place, I'm so debt ridden with house loans, kneading my fats won't help much)

Grounded, just like an aircraft and longingly for a chance. What kinda chance, one might ask?
Can I honestly say I do not know? Is this my calling now? Not knowing a single thing yet the wanting to know some things? I want a breakthrough, something that could change my life now, for the better obviously....

What is it exactly that I'm still looking for?