Hibernation

For the past few days, I ain't had been too well. Kinda bogged down by my cough, my mood swings had been turbulent. I juz dunno why. Maybe had been affected by one of my friends, C. We went to this club together with his friends whom I didn't know any of them. He kinda accused me of being overly flirtatious with his friends. We kinda had an disagreement over it. My stand was I was juz being sociable. I am not those kinda wall flowers that turned at a party and desperately cling on walls for cover nor protection. He maimed that I didn't respect him(?!) We left the argument hanging. He kinda avoided my calls and I was too tired to apologize any more.

Couldn't sleep thru the weekend. Was kinda hurt that I had been misunderstood. My buddy, Unclez tried to anaylse my situation. It kinda dawned upon me that I had liked C, you know those more than a friend kinda feelings. Otherwise I wouldn't be so crappy about the whole situation. Darnz.... Unclez laughed at my inability to be truthful about my feelings. Yeah it cost me a friendship with C. He avoids me now even online. Yeahz... Yeahz....

Mummy had made a lot of dumplings for the upcoming Dumpling Festival (or watever) I wasn't in any mood to appreciate them. She kept quiet when I told her that I wasn't feeling well. Holed myself in the room the whole of Sunday, except I had a 2hour break outdoors with Unclez, drinking my favourite iced milk tea, smoking and discussing 'bout my moods. Bless the old soul, Unclez was trying to be nice in comforting me but apparently, I still dunno what is going on inside me. I feel like taking a break away, away from here. Somewhere idyllic, somewhere serene would be nice..... Somewhere to soothe my confused soul...