Recently...

I haven't seen him for quite some time now. We used to be close, we used to hang out together.
I feel so comfortable in his company. I feel silly at times when I'm making lame jokes. I feel mean when I bicker with him, teasing him to death. I feel electricified whenever his shoulder brush against mine. I feel myself getting more and more drawn to him.
Yet he doesn't know. I thought of him whenever I get a single moment to myself. I listen to the songs he likes, I watch the tv programs he watches.... But it doesn't help. We are not an item.
He had never thought of me, he had never texted me on my mobile.
My buddy objected to my growing crush.
"It's unhealthy!!!! It's a waste of time!!! It's SO obvious he don't have any attraction towards you!!!"
She always likes to make a big fuss out of nothing.. Kinda killed my mood, my hopes.
I was always the one calling him, texting him, talking to him on msn. I stopped on my expert's advice. It was pretty hard initally. I feel empty, as if I had left something unfinished at the end of the day. The first night, I couldn't sleep... I was really wishing he would text me... But none ever came. I had thought too highly of myself then. I blocked him on msn now. I know he's there online, chatting with other people.
A crush gone wrong? A one sided attraction with no ending....
I busied myself with reading in the daytime and blading at night. Juz to get him off my mind. Going for coffee with my friends, playing pool but always at the end of the day... My mind would run back to him.. I miss him. I wonder how was his day,how is he getting on by now... Did I ever cross his mind....?
Life goes on.... I still carry a piece of him in my memories. Ain't nothing fantastic but at the very least, I would say he had appeared in my life and somehow touched me in a way, some others couldn't...